So, I’ve geared up to destroy the last project I have on my plate (at this point) for White Wolf. I have my plan of attack and my detailed outline ready. (Detailed is a lie. Anal is the word I’m looking for.)

So in my planning and outlining stages I do all kinds of other silly things that aren’t necessary. I have spread sheets for shaming myself into beating yesterday’s word count. I have web pages I might reference tabbed together on my browser, I even shuffle my PDFs around in a folder so I can find them if I think they’re relevant. They rarely are. And that’s just on the computer. I have two white boards, three colors of dry erase markers and sometimes, colored pens for writing on my hands. –Well, that last part is more with my creative writing than this freelancing stuff.

And yet, and YET I still feel like I don’t have enough prepared or organized. I want programs. I want computer programs that will do everything for me. I want them to organize my time, congratulate my successes and berate me for my failures. I want programs that do my dishes, but of course, that isn’t going to happen. I think this endless search for the perfect free writing program is a distraction I’ve created for myself so I have something to procrastinate about while feeling like I’m working. If it does exist, it’ll cost money, and I don’t make any money yet, so that’s out.

I’m sure if I found something that could track multiple projects (There must be colors! And visuals! And motivational speeches, well, not that, maybe.) keep track of due dates and contracts plus payments… Well hell, I’d probably come up with something new I wanted even if I did find it. Ah well, the search goes on.

The important thing is the word count, and that goes. I’m just praying for the program that will organize everything so perfectly that I’ll suddenly double my production while getting all Donna Reed on my house. Ha, right? Ha.